Besides the fact that just keeping up with my own life has made blogging a little difficult lately, I’ve also found it difficult to blog about Ollie’s healing. How do I explain something that’s so bizarre to most people?
I’ve decided not to worry about it. You can feel free to think I’m a weird-o. As long as I can see it’s working for Ollie, I don’t mind, and if you do, you won’t be the first.
In the previous blog on healing, I talked about doing Cellular Memory Release (CMR) work to release the emotional blocks and old patterns that Ollie holds in his body. By far, that’s been the most valuable work for Ollie.
Speaking in generalities because the details would take pages and pages to describe, Ollie has let go of a lot of the need to manage Tara’s emotions for her, but it has not been an easy process for him. By letting go of her emotions, he’s had to learn to deal with his own “stuff” and stand on his own four legs as an individual. He still has quite a bit of insecurity and fear around being without her/not supporting her–or any rider for that matter.
In his latest session during week 11, he told me he was really worried about what his future would be without Tara. He’s not sure anyone is going to like him. He believes he’s a lot of trouble, and he’s afraid he’ll end up back in the same situation he was in in Florida or, worse yet, with the same trainer.
The fear, along with the lightning strike at the house on the farm, had him tied in knots. We had never seen Ollie so stiff and sore.
As he was telling me what he was feeling, I had the most beautiful image of what his true self looks like. I asked him if he could see it. He said he couldn’t, so I took a few minutes to describe to him what I saw and felt from this image.
He was this glowing, solid, strong, mature horse, rooted into the ground in the most supportive way. I explained to him that’s who he really is under the emotional baggage. He took that in and pondered it for a while.
I explained what a healthy relationship between a horse and rider looks and feels like. How each supports the other without carrying the other’s baggage. I showed him how to manifest this relationship in his life by setting his intention to achieve it. Then I showed him how to process the physical symptoms of the fear and insecurity he was feeling so they could leave his body.
This CMR was another iteration of the work we’ve been doing all along. He gets a deeper understanding of how things can be and moves closer to his true self with each session. That doesn’t mean he can’t be triggered as he was last week, though. It’s normal to take a step back now and again.
Ollie has also needed quite a bit of repair to his energy field and chakras (energy centers of the body). As he’s let go of emotional blocks, his field has gotten stronger. I’ve also been able to clear and open his chakras more and more.
On the physical side, Ollie has received a lot of myofascial and nervous system work to remove calcium deposits and repair damaged or malfunctioning cells, and skeletal repair to remove more calcium deposits, open his spinal canal, and open the places in the spine where the nerves come out. He’s also gotten several energetic spinal adjustments.
We work with Ollie on a daily basis doing mini-CMRs, too. When he’s apprehensive or fearful or upset because he feels like a bad horse, we always take the time to talk to him and find out what’s up. Better to deal with something on the spot than let it fester.
Part of his rapid progress is because we acknowledge how he feels on any given day. He never has to be strong or stoic, and we never make fun of him for what he feels. Nobody likes to be picked on when they feel bad. Our horses are the same.
At the same time, we don’t try to get him to believe everything is OK, either. There’s no “It’s OK Ollie! You’re a good boy!” If he’s upset, everything isn’t OK for him, even if we’d like it to be. Acknowledging how he feels keeps him from spiralling. It also doesn’t get him out of what he’s being asked to do, but it might change how we ask.
Each time something comes up for him, we have a little conversation to help him through in whatever way is necessary.
Clearing his field and repairing his body is making Ollie stronger in many ways. He has more potential than he knows. I hope he comes to believe in it before he goes to his next home.









